Okey, I did get a crush on him.. A quite BIG one. I did something that I'm sure that not many girls would have done.. a "different" surprise. I have to admit that it was the best day of my whole life, it was just perfect. Everything was perfect. We knew that for a long time we wouldn't see each other again, but it didn't sound like a problem (then). But the, as always, everything disappeared. It was really strange, and I was quite confused; mainly because I don't know how he could of have forgotten everything that happened. And I have to say that my last two weeks have been horrible.. The Easter that I hoped to have, has been a disaster shit ... don't know how to describe it. Today I've read my horoscope, and it says that I will meet a new guy and to let my self go and let happen what has to happen. I think it's been the first good news for a long time; I think I NEED TO MEET SOMENE NEW... but I have to say that I wouldn't mind at all that this guy was my "super model".

CARNAVAL

Okey people! Finally I've been able to get out of that black hole. Do you know that he didn't even text me when he knew that I was there?! That actually made me see how bastard he is. So a new supermodel came by! Hope that the right one this time (yn). So lets see how things go on. Today I know nothing about him... hope that soon he will say something (you know I NEVER start a conversation..). So perhaps this might be the first and last time that I will leave a post with this song, but it's so us!
 Note: I still need to be careful not to get a crush on him.

La conocí en el carnaval
ella vivia en mi ciudad
una amiga nos presentó
saltó la chispa entre los dos
Llegó la noche de San Juán
¿Hola morena como estás?
con su mirada me llevó
donde nos puso la canción

Es su pelo, son sus ojos, será su forma de mirar
es su sueño, no despiertes, que la noche no puede acabar
son sus labios, es su risa, será su forma de besar
es su sueño, no lo dudes, no podemos dejarlo despertar

Dime que me quieres, ooooouohh
dime que me amas ieeieeee
dime que lo sientes ieeieee
dime que me extrañas ooooouohh
(x2)

Ahora la busco y ya no está
no me lo quise imaginar
aquel momento se marchó
y se clavó en mi corazón
este verano va a pasar
serás mi reina y nada más

que tu cuerpo me confunde cuando pasa por mi lao
mi cabeza se pregunta se me vá de lao a lao
no me canso de decirlo cuando yo te veo por ai
tus ojos son morena de lo que no hay

Es su pelo, son sus ojos, será su forma de mirar
es su sueño, no despiertes, que la noche no puede acabar
son sus labios, es su risa, será su forma de besar
es su sueño, no lo dudes, no podemos dejarlo despertar

Dime que me quieres, ooooouohh
dime que me amas ieeieeee
dime que lo sientes ieeieee
dime que me extrañas ooooouohh
(x2)

Shine, shine shine on!

Right. Now I can't even stay. Perhaps it's destiny, you know... every time something happens. A vital pat of my plan for this long week-end has suddenly...gone? (literally talking...). BUt now, lets just imagine for a second that Subject B enters, what shall I do? One part of me says, why not? But of course, there's this other part who is completely against it. And really I feel think that I have to be careful, and take care with every step that I take. That going out and him not going to be there, can be quite dangerous. Hey, I'm only 17 (and I have to say that he is going to have as much as fun as me). So now that I've finished writing this, I have realized that I just need to go and have fun, and that if something happens, it will be for a reason. Don't you think? Shine, shine, shine on! Yeeeeeeees

Shall I stay?

It's been a long time. So many things happened, that I just didn't know when or how to write them. A past love came by...wasn't a surprise really. You know, when you have that feeling that there's still something.. but something impossible. And it's when you feel all alone, wishing to be again with him. And perhaps my tears are dropping down my face whilst I'm writing this.. but you don't know what I'm going through now.. People who you don't want by your side, are just trying to be.. and it's something that saturates me. Because I just wanna be with you. Because every song remembers me of you. Because you are always you. An when I'm with you I don't wanna leave. But I always ask my self Shall I stay?, Would it be a sin?

Things were better than they are

You left, but came again. Talked about what happened.. stupid conversation. Didn't make sense at all. Was good at the start, when I didn't analyze it. Talked to a friend about it. She opened my eyes. Feel like rubbish right now. Don't know what to do, what to say or how to act. Wish everything was like before. When it was only us. When the only thing that worried me was receiving you mail from the night before. You know what? I'm falling in love But its falling apart I need to find my way back to the start When we were in love Things were better than they are Let me back into your arms.

Silence is the loudest

There we go again. Thought I forgot you, but suddenly you came again. But left again. No signs.. two perhaps.. no more. And I hate it you know. And I always ask myself, why did it end up like this? Was it an error what happened? Or are we the error? Really I don't know.. what I most hate of all is this silence.. this silence that seems to never end. Silence is the loudest Parting word You never say.

Oh she's sick of this town

Merry Christmas. Happy New Year. But I want to get out. Always with the same shit people, problems, arguments.. same everything. It  really gets on my nerves now.. seriously. I want change, I don't want to go out and see the same things, at the same time, at the same place. But it's something impossible and I know it. I just wish that I could be where I want to be, with who I want to be. And I know I should be happy for being accepted at IED.. but it seems so far away. But I'm also afraid that when the time comes, I miss this shit. Oh she's sick of this town And the rain that falls down.